Wednesday, February 10, 2010

एक कोशिश ....

आज फिर एक कोशिश है कलम उठाने की

कुछ लिखने, कुछ कह जाने की ...


कुछ सपने फिर से सजाने की

कुछ सोये सपनो को फिर से जगाने की ...


दिल में है जो बात, व्यक्त कर पाने की

इस अभिव्यक्ति को हौसले से भर पाने की ...


इस हौसले से ज़िन्दगी को आजमाने की

इन आज्माइशों से कुछ सीख पाने की ...


हारते हारते एक बार फिर जीत जाने की ...

फिर जीत को अपनी आदत बनाने की ...


कहीं खो चुकी उन राहों में

एक कोशिश है आज ....

खुद को फिर ढूंढ पाने की ........


Lost somewhere in the pace of life, a first effort made by me almost an year and a half back had became just momentary passion of past. After a long effort of pushing myself, I'm back here to attain the power of expressions in words.

So here I'm, back with an endeavor to attain my lost passion of writing. Hope my true friends would understand the feeling behind this and welcome me back to the world of blogging.


Saturday, September 6, 2008

Missing You .....

"What you want to do, don't think where others are heading, just think and tell me your wish, what you want to do and not what someone expects you to do ..... just give a simple yes or no whether you want to go for engineering ? ", you asked me. I, highly confused and upset that time, replied " No, I don't want to go for this" and you, in an instance, said, "OK, that's final now and you are not going to attempt for engineering entrances. Your career choice is yours and if you want to go for different way, then just go and start your endeavors now because always remember that wherever you go, just be one of the most remarkable performers. "

So, this was a discussion i had with you, dad, when i was on a point where i had to take some crucial decisions for my career. This is the time when most of the people, esp. parents give the opinions and a lot of analysis is done, but there was the substance of life which you put in me right from my childhood ... the substance of decision making ... the capability of making big crucial decisions in an instance of time.

Since the time I gained the sense of perception in my childhood, I always saw you as a close buddy rather than as a dad. On one side, you were sometimes a very strict father so that i can become a nice of a person and on the other front, you were a pal to me as you just taught me to take the right decisions, not taking decisions for me. I still remember the time when you put a lot on stake to secure my admission in one of the top notch schools of city, where i was selected but left the choice of joining the school entirely on me. You made me take my first big decision of life at that time, which, up to some extent could affect my career in long term.

You accompanied me to the latest flick in the theater when none of my friends was available to accompany me, you were used to talk with me about my buddies and class bunks as well. On the serious front, you never gave me too idealistic principles of life but always taught me to be realistic in life. You never hid from me the challenges of life and the real life sufferings but always made me face that so that i can become capable of handling the hardcore realities of life whether it be finances or the personal relationships. You gave me the warm protection of a father but always made me aware too that life will always not be like that.

Life will always not be like that ..... and that happened one day ... life was really not like that. A storm of disaster came and you left me, you left us ... it was all changed. My world was changed, my life was changed all of sudden. But, it was the time to prove myself ... to prove that the lessons of taking up the different ways in life were actually going to be so useful in life. The essence of life which you gave was going to be my biggest support at that time.

It was the time when the substances of attitude you gave to me, empowered me to fight the obstacles of life. It was my self confidence and decision making capability which i got from you, encouraged me to fight back and hit the circumstances hard. Everything was going adverse and each day was exposing me to shrewd realities of life but the sense of responsibility which you put into me, was making me win all the obstacles day by day.

Its almost four and half years now, and I'm here ... SETTING GOALS AND ACHIEVING THEM .... for my family, for myself, for you ..... each obstacle is a new challenge for me and it really excites me to fight hard in life and cracking the challenge ... ALL BECAUSE OF YOU DAD .....

So, on your BDay dad, i want to say a heartily thanks to you for making me capable of taking my own decisions from an early age, for not just dictating me, but for giving me a sense of perceiving the difference between right and the wrong, for elaborating me to enjoy my life in my own way, not just blindly following others, for teaching me to face the shrewd practical aspects of life, for making me learn setting goals and achieving them always .... for making me a person who is confident enough to take up all challenges of life happily and can proudly say .. "Whatever I am today, its all because of you dad .... "

HAPPY BDAY DAD .....
Missing You Badly .....